My family is everything to me. They literally define me, and they are the reason I do everything - they are the reason I am who I am.
I've been a Mom for a while now, for almost longer than I can remember not being a Mom. My daughter came into my life as a wonderful surprise - I was 14. It seems like just yesterday, but next month - she'll be turning 10. I've accomplished so much since I became her Mother, it amazes me. I constantly wonder - how did we GET through the last ten years? I've graduated high school and College. I worked as a nurse for years (until I met my now Husband). And some how, I've raised and molded her into the beautiful young lady that she has become.
My son was born on October 28, 2010. I wanted the birth with him that I wasn't able to give my daughter. Natural, unmedicated, intervention-free, quiet & peaceful. I wanted to trust my body, to give birth as naturally as I could - like so many women before me were able to do. I gave my all to that plan, and for almost 17 hours - I was successful. My son started to suffer serious distress while we were in labor, and I was transferred to the OR for an emergency c-section. They were able to locate his heart rate and we hoped that I'd be able to still birth naturally. However, his heart tones weren't reassuring and we ended up having to give birth surgically. While it wasn't the birth I wanted and while I question if we could have done things differently, I'm glad that my son was born healthy and I'm glad that I'm still here to be his Mom. A positive birth experience is important, but nothing trumps having a healthy Mom & baby. Nothing.
My Husband and I have been married for almost two years, and have been together for almost three. We met in November of 2008. We fell head over heels in love, and got engaged a few months later. On October 23, 2009 - we got legally married in Gatlinburg, TN. We were already planning our big wedding (set for April 24, 2010) but needed to have things legally in place. Bill had a pretty scary heart surgery that year, and we were afraid of something bad happening again and I would have had no legal say in his care at that point. We didn't tell a lot of people - so if you didn't know, please don't get upset. It wasn't that we were hiding it, it's just that we didn't see it as a real marriage ceremony and we didn't want to downplay our wedding in April. We had a beautiful wedding on April 24, 2010 - at which we were already expecting our precious new guy.
I worked as a LPN for a few years before I met Bill, and as an STNA for a few years before that. Sometimes, I miss working. I miss the people I used to work with and the people I used to take care of - but I don't miss the hours I used to work and I'm glad that I'm the main/primary caregiver of both my children.
I'm a pretty opinionated Momma. I've researched everything I do for my kids - I've read books, watched documentaries, read study after study from medical journals as well as personal experiences from many other parents. I'm learning that while I may research the crap out of everything, not every parent does. I'm learning that a lot of parents are okay with trusting what the media says, and what other parents say - even what their doctors say. If you find that I'm a bit pushy with my beliefs, bear with me. I'm a work in progress.
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